A dumb man

ok so anyways now that I have said so many weird things about me I have to mention what happened Monday night. I picked Jason up from class at about 9:45 so we headed to Toysrus really quick to pick something up for Harley's present. Jason goes in at like 9:55. 5 minutes later the entry doors automatically lock so people can't come in. Around 10:10 this guy pulls up runs to the front doors and realizes that the store is closed but since he sees workers still in there, he tries to pry the front doors apart. It was so funny watching this grown man try to pry a door open when the store is closed. You would think he would just deal with it. (sorry I watch kids nation) So when Jason leaves the store this guy comes in through the exit doors that open automatically and he gets in the store but they make him leave. I thought it was funny. I didn't know people are that dumb

Its definite I am going crazy!

Well in case you wanted more proof on how weird I am, I stress over little things way too much. I focus on something I need to do (usually its the cleaning the house) but then I get overwhelmed at like cleaning the bathroom that I just can't do it. If I have a day that I have a lot of things to do I stress because I worry that when I come home the house won't be clean and I will be too tired to take care of my kids. I plan things that I want to do but when I actually have to do them I stress thinking of all the other things I need to do and the things I need to do later and all the what ifs that might happen when I leave and I just give up and don't leave the house unless its something that I have to do.
And do I need to mention when I go to the store? I have in mind what I want and need to buy. But when I go with Jason it takes 45 minutes just to get to the grocery part because he has to look at the toys and the movies which involves the kids crying because they want everything that was ever created because its their favorite and they either want it for Christmas or for their birthday. So when we get to buying food what we need, Jason is irritated because we have been in the store too long (He complained about this the other day but when I reminded him where we spend more of our time at the store he didn't say anything else) the kids are bored so they are trying to jump from one cart or another or trying to yell things that will make people look at them (Novalee's favorite is FIRE!) and Gunnar is crying because he wants out and wants to walk around the store like his sisters. I start getting panic attacks and just have to grab what I can because I can't think. When we get into the car I am about to cry and by the time we get home I am so tired from our adventure of buying groceries which didn't even consist of half the things I need. That I just can't do anything else. I have no energy the rest of the night. Okay so you know something else weird about me. I know its really stupid that I do this but I can't help it sometimes and I try to make it seem like I can do everything that I want to but sometimes I just can't handle too much on my to do list.

I was tagged, forever ago!!

Ok I have been tagged more then once but I will do this one right now. Just so you know I hate dial up computers,


6 things about me that you probably don't know these all probably sound really weird since these are things I usually don't like to tell people.





1 - People bother me all the time. Sometimes I can't stand being around other people especially when I know that they are being fake. I am not saying I don't like to be around my friends. Its one things to be polite and be shy or just act a certain way but when someone just is fake or just has a bad attitude on everything. Or when they say something really stupid like "Don't use lysol because it has things they use to embalm bodies" Duh that really bothered me when I heard that. I had a nice answer for that but still I get so annoyed. That is a big reason that I just like to keep to myself a lot. I don't mind.


2 - I hate my feet. You probaby wouldn't guess since I wear my sandals everyday. They are so dry and cracked I can't stand them. Someone told me probably 10 or more years ago that my toes look they had been cut in half since they are short. I hate my feet.



3 - If I miss church because I am sick or we are going somewhere that day, I stress so much about missing church. I have been like that since I started going back by myself when Novalee was just a baby. Then when I had Harley it was even more hard to deal with 2 kids under 2 by myself. If I didn't go I felt so much guilt and I couldn't tell Jason because he would think it was people at church who were giving me a hard time for missing but it was me not them. Even when my nephew died, I had a hard time feeling ok for missing church. I think I am too hard on myself for not being perfect but I know that if I don't force myself to do things I don't feel like doing then I worry that they won't get done later.



4 - I had a really bad car accident on the freeway in Dec of 2000. I lost control of my car and a semi hit me. Luckily with some miracle (seriously) I only had whiplash. As I was spinning across the freeway, I thought I was going to die. Since then I am so paranoid and still sometimes I have dreams that something is happening and I am going to die, I will wake up catching my breath and just in a daze because I am so scared. It was seriously a traumatic event for me that I still worry about.

5 - I waste too much time blog hopping. I do it all the time instead of the things I am supposed to be doing. Jason thinks I am really dumb to do it but I just do. I can't ever just sit and watch tv I have to be doing something. I don't know why I even care to do it as much as I do since I don't know the people or I haven't talked to them in a really long time. Its really sad and I try to spend more time off the computer instead of online when I am bored but when I do, I find my DVR.

6 - I think I spend too much time thinking about what I don't have and not enough time being grateful for what I have. Its frustrating that we still don't own a house and in reality probably shouldn't buy until we take care of other financial responsibilities first and Jason finishes school. I get sad thinking we are not living in the house that our kids will finish growing up in because I was hoping we could be in our home before our kids were older and that they could come home from school and just talk about their memories in their house growing up. I know it sounds stupid and kids rarely live in the same house their whole life but Novalee will probably be around 8 or 9 before we get our permanent house. We have been fortunate to have only moved 2 times and this rental is ok but I think I need to take advantage of it more and appreciate the low monthly payment and learn to enjoy what I have.

Ok that is some weird things about me, just don't think I am too strange now. This is stuff not a lot of people know about me.

For Bonny

Well I have been so busy lately and I am looking forward to December because school will be over!! I have had so much to do, I am kind of worried because one class I forget to email the assignments to my teacher. She said I was ok but then I forgot to turn another assignment in.

Note to self

Don't pretend to fall asleep while Jason is talking about his day, its not funny.

The answers to life

1. What is the name of my cousin 5 times removed?

I don't know but maybe there is a Jason there. That is a common name.

2. There is a picture of my house where I am standing by mickey mouse. What is the color of the shirt I am wearing?

If you don't know I am so mad at you its gray

3. What was my address of my house when I lived in St. Johns?

1420 w 6th N, St. Johns AZ

4. How did Jason cut his hair in the summer of 2006 that I didn't like?

A dorky Mohawk that was crooked thanks to me

5. My mom cut the paw of a cat what was its name?

Lucky

6. Who was I in love with in 6th grade?

Patrick Swayze to name one

7. What toy was used as a bribe to get my friends to clean my room for me?

A magic 8 ball, I was actually supposed to be cleaning my room my mom left and said I had to clean so I could go to the fair but instead I called my friends over and whoever cleaned the most in my room got to play with the 8 ball but instead they cleaned and by the time they were done I think my mom came home so I had to hide them in the closet

8. According to my awesome uncle Brian, who am I related to?

The headless horseman from the story "Sleepy Hollow"and our bloodline is cursed because of it

9. What did Jason have the author of The Christmas Jar sign in our book?

To Jason's awesome wife (It was funny because the author's name is Jason too)

10. At one of the dances I went to in high school Evangeline and I had a problem with the air freshener in her car, what was it?

We opened the whole air freshener and we smelt like pine so strong all night

11. What was the name of my math teacher that later ended up working with my husband and I, and I still to this day, can't call him by his first name.

Mr Kyte

12. My little sister one time thought something scary about all of our family. That when she was sleeping we were doing what and who were we really?

Bonny thought we were all aliens and at night we would stay up late and talk about how we were going to kill her

13. In high school what would we ask the guys at BYU when we were sluffing school and driving around campus?

We would drive around in Lisa's car and I would be the one to ask them to give me five. Most just gave me a strange look

14. How many times does Jason have my name tattooed on him?

None the dork

15. What is my favorite show that my DVR has to record every week?

Ghost Hunters

16. How many step brothers and step sisters do I have?

6

17. What is our next vacation that we are planning on next year?

Disneyland

18. What is the name of Harley's boyfriend that I caught her kissing last week?

Our scarecrow by the front door. It was a tender moment

19. What fellow blogger likes to put her daughter in the trunk of the car just like I do?

Monica

20. What blogger secretly looks up to me?

Everyone

21. I was offered a job last week but since I didn't want to have to wake up by 8:00 am I turned it down what was it?

My own reality show

22. Who do I know that had their house broken into last week but scared away the intruder when she yelled, "Don't come in yet! I am washing the dishes!"

Libby

23. What did I do last year that ended up in a yelling argument in the kindergarten class last year?

I told the principal that the boy who choked Novalee needed to know you can't choke people

24. In your opinion where do babies come from?

Amy and Lucia to name some maybe Kate??

25. What is the name of my famous former brother in law? (Bonny's ex, not the troll though)

Josh Groban, Novalee told a bunch of people at the store also.

26. What is the name of the fan club I started recently?

We love Betty

27. Do you have anything else you want to know about me?

Well no one answered this one so random thing. I can't find Gunnar's coat or shoes!! AHH It's getting cold!

Happy Halloween!

Ok I will get to the answers on my quiz later and I was tagged but life is busy and I am trying to pay more attention to my kids not the computer. Its been crazy we have had some really stressful days where I feel like crying Halloween was so fun. We went to the ward's Halloween Party and went trick or treating upstairs. They decorated doorway's along the primary hall and it was so fun for the kids. Then we came home and went up and down our street. The kids got so much candy that Harley's bag broke.

The quiz about Katrina

Ok I was tagged by Lucia but she needs to come and comment on my blog so I am giving you all a quiz about me I will post the answers later. Who ever gets these all right gets a smile from me.







1. What is the name of my cousin 5 times removed?



2. There is a picture of my house where I am standing by mickey mouse. What is the color of the shirt I am wearing?



3. What was my address of my house when I lived in St. Johns?



4. How did Jason cut his hair in the summer of 2006 that I didn't like?



5. My mom cut the paw of a cat what was its name?



6. Who was I in love with in 6th grade?





7. What toy was used as a bribe to get my friends to clean my room for me?





8. According to my awesome uncle Brian, who am I related to?





9. What did Jason have the author of The Christmas Jar sign in our book?





10. At one of the dances I went to in high school Evangeline and I had a problem with the air freshener in her car, what was it?





11. What was the name of my math teacher that later ended up working with my husband and I, and I still to this day, can't call him by his first name.





12. My little sister one time thought something scary about all of our family. That when she was sleeping we were doing what and who were we really?





13. In high school what would we ask the guys at BYU when we were sluffing school and driving around campus?



14. How many times does Jason have my name tattooed on him?



15. What is my favorite show that my DVR has to record every week?



16. How many step brothers and step sisters do I have?



17. What is our next vacation that we are planning on next year?



18. What is the name of Harley's boyfriend that I caught her kissing last week?



19. What fellow blogger likes to put her daughter in the trunk of the car just like I do?



20. What blogger secretly looks up to me?



21. I was offered a job last week but since I didn't want to have to wake up by 8:00 am I turned it down what was it?



22. Who do I know that had their house broken into last week but scared away the intruder when she yelled, "Don't come in yet! I am washing the dishes!"



23. What did I do last year that ended up in a yelling argument in the kindergarten class last year?

24. In your opinion where do babies come from?

25. What is the name of my famous former brother in law? (Bonny's ex, not the troll though)


26. What is the name of the fan club I started recently?

27. Do you have anything else you want to know about me?

I know you missed me

Well, since my blogger finally works, there was a lot going on that everyone missed. Now I have forgotten it all and I am busy emailing Bonny while I am putting off cleaning my house which has built up a mess since Gunnar has been sick. I enjoyed holding him while I have been watching Ghost Hunters and TLC. I am slacking on some things outside the house though like I still need to go to pick up a costume for Gunnar that I am borrowing from someone.
I feel so bad for my kids lately we have been soo busy with all these things I have planned for them that I can't do all the fun things when we are home with the kids like we used to. I already know next semester, I am not going to go full time. When Gunnar got sick I had to cancel 5 things planned. I need to get a schedule! Anyways, this is really boring so I will go cause some drama and write more later!

Hopefully

OK I hope this works. This is my tester blog.

How to make Poison

Random Things about some people ( My house is clean, kids are playing, what to do?)

My Celebrity Sightings

Where Babies Come From

I am taking a human development class at school and we were talking about a child's idea of where babies come from. My teacher had a good story. When his kids were younger his 5 year old came to think that to have babies the mom and dad got naked and held hands skipping over a hill. So I asked my kids (separately) where babies come from.

Novalee - "Well, ____ said, that you have to be sexy to have a baby." ( I didn't put in the girl's names)

Harley - "A mommy puts a baby in her tummy then drinks lots of milk and the baby grows."

I thought all of you mommies would appreciate this.

Gunnar is 2!

Well yesterday was Gunnar's second birthday but, we didn't have the birthday party, we are going to do it today. He is my special boy and I love him so much. We gave him his presents to open from us yesterday morning he first opened a little dinosaur, got excited, then moves onto the next present, the second he tells its clothes he puts it down and plays with the dinosaur! He is the most fun little boy. We are so lucky to have him!

About Monica

Ok so Monica just called and said this it, "Monica ______, you know Eric's wife??" Well silly Monica, I would know who you were if you had just said Monica. Just to show you how well I actually know you here are some facts about Monica.

• My kids remember her
  
• She has a husband named Eric and a daughter named Nora
  
• I said hi to her before
  
• One time I almost hit a dog and I told myself to tell Monica next time I saw her
  
• When she was growing up she had a dog named Brownie
  
• She has blond hair and blue eyes
  
• She has a car
  
• Her name starts with a "M"
  
• It ends with a "A"
• She saved a grasshopper from a burning home
• She can play the violin
• Monica was born with an extra toe on her left foot but chose to remove it after kids started calling her "11" when she was 12 years old.
• She always tells me how gorgeous I am
• I know her
• She has 2 eyes
• She has never been on Judge Judy
• She uses Geico Insurance

That's Monica!

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Well, just so you all know, I didn't do this awesome background on my blog it was done by a wonderful person named Amy. Thanks

Sealed!

I was lucky enough to be sealed to my husband and my children last night and it was so wonderful!! Not all the pics worked but here are some and I am going to try to work on the rest!

Yeah I am lame.............

Ok I was in a silly mood today so I sent Jason this email telling him that Gunnar threw a fit, and threw his toy at the living room tv. The toy went through the tv screen and started sparking I had to unplug the tv and all this stuff. It didn't happen but I thought it was funny. So Jason called me and was panicking saying what happened? I mentioned homework I had done and stuff that didn't matter, then I said, " Oh the email?? Well, I meant to tell you that I didn't get the garbage to the road before they came to pick it up The tv is fine" He didn't think that was funny.
I laughed

Gunnar

My baby boy

• Likes dinosaurs and cars


• has to carry 4 dinosaurs with him everywhere even sleeps with them I took a picture once


• growls at me all the time.


• used to dance to 12 dancing princesses


• wants to do everything that Harley does


• in fascinated by everything around him


• will turn 2 in Oct


• has had a concussion already


• loves to give kisses


• he is so cute when he pouts and folds his arms! I give into him in no time!


• is carried around by his big sisters all the time and they drop him all the time.


• loves to sneak into mom and dad's bed in the morning and tell us stories
• gets bit by his dinosaurs then cries for me to punish them and tell them no no